MY MID-WEEK RAMBLING...

kanasai... the header picture at the top of this blog has disappeared for the god-knows how many-eth time liao! crap. and i do like the picture very much.

going for my theatre practical on monday has made me realise that self does not like to emote. or attempt to express grief and cry i front of people i don't noe. ahahaha... which is precisely what the theatre tutor attempted to make us do.

i stood there trying to think of the saddest thing i could come up with so that i would tear but erm.. all i could think of was, ''wah lau, im damn hungry!" heh. erm.. right. that was such an artistic thought... so that didn't work out.

oh well. theatre's not my calling i suppose. hahaha.. but it is different from my other tutorials so i guess i shouldn't be in sucha hurry to slag it off. it might not turn out to be so bad. =)

reading The Time Traveler's Wife.. its a pretty interesting concept... got this from the book which i thot was pretty cool...

"Oh not because happiness exists,
that too-hasty profit snatched from approaching loss

But because truly being here is so much; because everything here
apparently needs us, this fleeting world, which in some strange way
keeps calling to us. us, the most fleeting of all.

...Ah, but what can we take along
into that other realm? Not the art of looking,
which is learned so slowly, and nothing that happened here. Nothing.
The sufferings, then. And, above all, the heaviness,
And the long experience of love, -just what is wholly
unsayable."

-from The Ninth Duino Elegy

hmmmm... hahaha... u guys noe i don't like things that make me think too much. i am an extremely shallow thinker. hehehehe. but the last part of the whole thing just made alot of sense. what do we take with us when we leave this earth?? essentially nothing. or at least nothing material.

yet its a nice thought that perhaps that ur life here wasn't futile. feelings and emotions that u built up throughout your life stay with u even in death. no one can take that away from u, not even death. cos its like in your soul or something. wow.

but thats just how i saw it. i might have just read it wrong but oh well. this morning is a revolutionary ''kim decides to think'' moment... hahahaha... and considering it doesn't happen very often cos kim doesn't like to think.. it shall be left at this.

training later this afternoon. eee so hot. yuck. must come up with cheesy songs to sing with jen. hehe

off to watch some cheesy morning tv. =)